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St. Paul—Government Informant! You Love His Dirty Drawhs!

St. Paul—Government Informant! You Love His Dirty Drawhs!

By Khalil Amani

St. Paul was a Government Informant—a Confidential Source, but you love his dirty drawhs! Yes you do! I’m tallumbout all you Christian, Hebrew/Israelites and all of you who quote Paul to make your bullshit religious points! And then fix your moufs to denounce Khalil Amani as a Government Informant! This one is for you!

Khalil Amani’s life has been an open book! He’s never shied away from his former life. In fact, he readily interviews, writes and does TV about being in a cult and working with the government to expose his cult, “The Yahwehs.” You can’t expose a man who’s already exposed himself! You can’t rattle the skeletons in one’s closet when he’s already opened the closet! Like the movie “8 Mile” where Eminem talks about his own flaws in a rap battle, leaving his foe with nothing to say about him, so is it with Khalil Amani. What are you gonna say about him that he hasn’t already said about himself? If you’re honest, the best you can do is tell his story without bias. If you’re dishonest, the best you can do is twist and manipulate his story to make him look hella crazy.

Khalil Amani was a Federal Government Informant—30 years ago. He’s been the subject of three national TV shows with a fourth one coming out this month on the A&E Channel about his cult involvement and having to enter the Federal Witness Security Program. In 2007, Amani wrote a book entitled, “My Id: Ignant & Dissfunkshunal! Life in the Yahweh Cult and the Witness Protection Program” (373 pgs.

2013: Khalil Amani on The Bio Channel's, "Escaping Evil: My Life in a Cult."

If niggas only read books, but that’s another essay. Khalil Amani is a writing beast, while most of these conscious community YouTubers can't even spell the titles of their videos correctly!

The distance people in the conscious community (i.e. the YouTube world) put between themselves and Khalil Amani is downright hypocritical, silly, funny and self-serving! Even the guy most responsible for bringing Khalil Amani to the conscious community, YouTuber Israel Doctrine has to keep a hedge betwixt himself and Khalil Amani. Painstakingly, Israel Doctrine, when confronted with his assumed “closeness” to Khalil Amani—and by implication, a government informant himself—will go to great lengths to put distance between himself and Khalil Amani. Israel will give commentary as well as play Khalil’s own words for his YouTube audience to prove that he has no relationship with Khalil, save to talk about Afrika Bambaataa. To save face to his detractors, Israel Doctrine will make it clear that he and Khalil Amani aren’t friends and have no relationship outside of deconstructing Bambaataa (and Hassan Campbell).

Khalil understands.

Again. Don’t get it twisted! In the real world, Khalil has hella family—a wife, five children, ten grandchildren, nieces, nephews, three siblings, two besties and lots of acquaintances! In this hip-hop world, Khalil is known through writing for, “The World’s Most Dangerous Site” and “The Gatekeeper of All Things Hip-Hop”—the “Drama King”—DJ Kay Slay’s magazine, Straight Stuntin Magazine for ten years.

But in this YouTube/conscious community world, Khalil Amani is a pariah—an outcast.

None in the fake YouTube/conscious community world will say that Khalil Amani is their friend. Khalil is anathema to the conscious community for having cooperated with the government and no matter how much he tells his story—a story of cult abuse, violence, child molestation, destruction of the black family and community by the cult leader—and the 14 murders by ear removal, decapitation, machete and guns—the fact that Khalil dared tell the authorities of the criminality of his cult, by talking to the FBI and getting on the witness stand makes him an irredeemable person in the eyes of so-called conscious folk. He is tainted and not to be trusted!

But let’s not get Khalil Amani twisted! He does not seek entrance into this phantom, fake-ass, argumentative, discombobulated, divisive and hateful conscious community, which is worse than the Christian church in which they all came from! Khalil merely wants to point out the hypocrisy of those that think his actions are inexcusable. You would think that Khalil Amani blasphemed the Holy Ghost for working with the FBI! I mean, your Bible does say, “All sins and blasphemes will be forgiven for the sons of men, but whoever blasphemes against the Holy Spirit will never be forgiven…” (Mark 3:28-30). Last time I checked, the government—the FBI—the US Marshal Service and the American Jurisprudence system were not the Holy Spirit, but the way these conscious Negroes handle Khalil Amani, you would think that, indeed, working with or cooperating with the government to put criminality underfoot was akin to and tantamount to blaspheming the Holy Ghost!

Enter Saul, who became Paul in the New Testament. He comes on the scene standing by watching a murder go down! “And Saul was connecting unto his [Stephen’s] death” (Acts 8:1).

Has Khalil Amani done anything near the past deeds of Paul? Fuck no, yet Paul is revered and quoted and embraced by Christians and Hebrew/Israelites alike. Paul is an authority and loved and embraced 2,000 years after his misdeeds, but if Paul were here today, he would be anathema to the conscious community! For Paul was the biggest Benedict Arnold, uncle-Tom, lackey, satrap, puppet-dog, back-stabbing, Gentile-loving, Jew-hating, flunky, traitor and Herodian stooge for Rome! Two-thousand years later he’s convinced these so-called conscious Negroes who claim to be the true Israelites that his words (letters) are heaven sent!

Off the rip, Paul tells us that he was a hellion (a rowdy & mischievous person) towards his own people, the Jews. In Acts 8:3 it states, “As for Saul, he made havoc of the church [the Jesus Movement], entering into every house, and hailing men and women committed them to prison.” These were his own fucking people! Saul did this on the orders of the Roman regime. Boasting further, Paul writes, “And Saul, yet breathing out threatenings and slaughter against the disciples of the Lord, went unto the high priest and desired of him letters to Damascus to the synagogues, that if he found any of this way, whether they were men or women, he might bring them bound to Jerusalem” (Acts 9:1-2). And yet more! “And I persecuted this way [the new Christians] unto death, binding and delivering into prisons both men and women” (Acts 22:4) But hold on! This fuck-boy Paul was transparent as hell about his misdeeds writing, “For ye have heard of my conversion in time past in the Jews’ religion, how that beyond measure I persecuted the church of God, and wasted it: And profited in the Jews’ religion above many my equals in mine own nation” (Galations 1:13-14).

This is the muthafucka that Christians and Hebrew/Israelites believe wholeheartedly, even though his story wreaks of lies that have become historical truths. Lie #1. The high priest, a Jew himself was in no authority to send Saul to Damascus to capture those of “This Way”—the newly converted Jewish Christians. #2. Damascus was a land of safe-haven, ruled not by Rome, but by the Arabian kingdom of Nabataea under king Aretas IV. The Bible even backs this up writing, “In Damascus the governor under Aretas the king kept the city of the Damascenes with a garrison, desirous to apprehend me [Saul]” (II Corinthians 11:32).

Paul is counting on your 21st century ignorance when he concocts his narrative. Damascus was a place of refuge I tell you! Saul wasn’t fucking with that place! The Jewish historian Flavius Josephus wrote, “When Aristobulus wanted to kill Hyrcanus…[he was] persuaded to fly to Aretas [in Damascus], the king of Arabia” (Winston 366). In The Dead Sea Scrolls it writes, “the teacher of Righteousness and his remaining followers fled to a place of refuge called ‘the land of Damascus” (Vermes 32).

Even Saul’s “conversion” story to what became known as Christianity needs a “side-eye.” He can’t keep his story straight! In Acts 9:7 Paul writes, “…the men which journeyed with him stood speechless, HEARING A VOICE, but seeing no man.” In Acts 22:9 Paul writes, “They that were with me saw indeed a light, but… HEARD NOT THE VOICE of him that spake.” See the contradiction? The philosopher Voltaire writes this of Saul’s “conversion”: “…there has never been a legend more insane, more fanatic, more disgusting, more worthy of revulsion and scorn [than Saul’s vision of Jesus on the road to Damascus]” (Applegate 135).

But fuck alla dat! Paul was an admitted uncle-Tom! An admitted Government Informant! An admitted jailer of women and men of his own race! An admitted murderer, yet, 2,000 years later, because he was allowed to write his own narrative—he comes out clean in the rinse! It can be extrapolated that along with putting women in jail, Saul was also a rapist. He was as decadent as all get-out! With the backing of his Roman handlers, Saul did whatever his heart desired.

Paul’s claim to have been converted from his nasty ways—his “sainthood” by the Roman Catholic Church—his books as “inspired” and "authoritative" and "canonized" has you 21st century Negroes in “Kumbaya” mode. Paul has been sanitized for your new-jack consumption!

The philosopher Frederick Nietzsche had this to say of St. Paul: “To consider Paul… honest when he dresses up a hallucination as proof that the redeemer still lives… What he himself did not believe, the idiots among who he threw his doctrine believed… His need was for power. …The ‘God’ whom Paul invented, a god who ‘ruins the wisdom of the world.’ God, as Paul created him, is the negation of God” (Kaufmann 618, 627). Mythologist Gerald Massey writes this of Paul: “…and this duplicity of doctrine makes Paul… look like the most double-tongued of men; double-tongued as the serpent.” California State professor and Dead Sea Scroll scholar, Robert Eisenman “believes that Paul is the Man of Lies… who… has not believed in the Covenant of God and have profaned his Holy Name” (Silberman 195).

Now back to Khalil Amani!

So you want to persecute Khalil Amani for speaking out against religious injustice? So you can’t befriend him because he had some dealings with the federal government? He’s an outcast in the conscious community for this? But then you have the nerve to embrace some guy from two millenniums ago (Paul) whose narrative is riddled with contradictions and inaccuracies? You love a man who violated every code of decency towards his own people? You love a former Government Informant who put his own people in jail—raped women and murdered men and women! This is the muthafucka you love and Khalil Amani is the muthafucka you hate? Hmmmmm?

Paul wrote his own story! Paul vindicates himself by claiming to have a “Change of Heart”—some gameshow shit! Who else can vouch for Paul besides Paul? Like Paul, Khalil wrote his narrative, but you Negroes do not believe in his story. Why? Because this is a real-time, present, in-your-face happenstance? Paul gets a pass, but Khalil is a pariah!

Here’s the reality though! Paul of 2,000 years ago was treated by the Jews the same way that Khalil Amani of today is treated by the conscious community. Paul became the “Apostle To The Gentiles” because he’d so thoroughly fucked over his own people; that once he “converted”—the Jews weren’t having it! They didn’t wanna hear no shit about him changing his life! They remembered what Paul had done to their mamas and daddies, sisters and brothers—how he imprisoned and raped and murdered their loved ones! Not even Jesus could change their hurtful hearts to allow Paul to preach to the Jewish people! You damn right! Take your ass over there to them Gentile white folks and talk that Jesus shit! We don’t believe you! You need more people!

Paul committed some of the most egregious crimes against humanity, but not nann preacher or teacher of the so-called “Word of God”—Christian or Hebrew/Israelite—dare take Paul to task for his transgressions against the human race, but, like the Roman Church, hold him sacrosanct (too important or valuable to be interfered with). Paul's a fucking "Sacred Cow!" Like Khalil Amani, Paul was a Government Informant for the greater part of his life! Why does he get a pass? Let me guess! Because that shit happened 2,000 years ago and Christianity, your first foray into religious conversation, spoon-fed you Paul’s message before you became a Hebrew/Israelite. You simply carried Paul over from one religious persuasion (Christianity) to your newfound religious persuasion. No examination needed! You have not given St. Paul the once-over!

Like the laws supposedly condemning homosexuality, which you have not examined—or done Exegetics and Textual Criticism and come to the realization that those Old Testament Levitical bastards, like these new-jack hallelujah hucksters and pulpit pranksters (preachers)—who want thousands of followers and begs you to come to their church—the same can be said for the ancient priests who were trying to keep people from worshipping other religions where the Goddess and same-sex attraction were part of religious ritual and worship. Sex, gay and straight sex were no bad thingy in the Ancient Near East until the freebooters and interlopers and nomads came on the scene; those Hebrews. Crafty and cunning as a serpent, they got busy with pen and paper and made up laws condemning homosexuality and said, “God said!” Anything to prevent those Israelites from engaging in foreign religious rites. Sex, homosexual sex became an "abomination," not because sex betwixt two men or two women was "unnatural" against God's law. No! Homosexuality became an abomination because it took the Israelites away from the worship of Yahweh and into the worship of Asherah/Ishtar/Ashtoreth and Sodomite religion! 

Again, you have not examined Paul! He was the Jews’ worst nightmare and would be repulsed if they did a “Back To The Future” and found out that the man who persecuted them turned out in history to be a fucking saint—that his words became more useful and read than even the man who rode side-saddle on an ass—who wore prototypical Birkenstock sandals on his gnarled feet! (I’m tallumbout Jesus!)

Conversely, Khalil Amani—for cooperating with the conscious community’s perceived "enemy"—the United States government by way of the Federal Bureau of Investigation (FBI) has been relegated to pariah (outcast) status. Khalil is not to be trusted. Watch that Negro! Keep some space betwixt you and him! For Khalil Amani did the next worse thing to blaspheming the Holy Ghost—cooperating with the government! (Side-eye)

Alas! The conscious community are Khalil's brothers and sisters, even if they will not let him in the house! Israel Doctrine is Khalil's brother, even if he tries to keep his distance for fear of the “snitch” label—even if he sometimes comes off “Hassanian” when he puts the “P” (for pedophile) on “LGBTQ and sometimes P”—when he’s heard Khalil say umpteen times that there is no correlation between being gay and being a pedophile. Michael Edwards is Khalil's brother, even though he’s run Khalil's narrative through his misinformation machine in times past. Today I have respect for him and of all these YouTubers, he seems to be most likely to not care about what others think about him speaking positivity towards Khalil. Sa Neter is Khalil's brother, even though he put Khalil on his YouTube show to make him out to be a real, bona fide “agent” and government “snitch” only to turn around and threaten to call the same FBI to help him with his child, as Khalil had done to help his children. Hassan Campbell is Khalil's brother, even though their disconnect is that Khalil big-ups gay people and Hassan can’t come to terms that it was Khalil Amani who actually “exposed” Afrika Bambaataa first. Hassan called Khalil Amani’s blog, “Celebrity Gossip.” Right! The Mighty Hebrew is Khalil's brother, even though he’s on some fuck-shit by believing Yahweh ben Yahweh’s narrative and justifying the murder of Miami residence because they were supposedly “drug dealers.” Instead of asking someone who was actually there—someone who was thoroughly involved in Yahweh’s intimacy, he chose to believe a lie because the bearer of bad news was a Government Informant. Kev Gillz is Khalil's brother, even though they had words because Khalil thought Kev was fucking up the Afrika Bambaataa narrative. Kev devoted a couple of shows on Khalil Amani as a Government Informant. Khalil Amani has love for all these men. 

The common thread that runs through each interaction between Khalil Amani and conscious community folk is his Government Informant days. If they really knew Khalil Amani they’d know that he’s a good guy—a loyal guy—“Salt of the Earth” and all dat!

Khalil Amani did not blaspheme the Holy Ghost! He simply stood up to an organization that was about the business of murder and in doing so, cooperated with the government and went into the Federal Witness Protection Program for his efforts! That’s all! You don’t have to embrace him in this life. Keep on shunning him, but what will you do when you see him in heaven, sitting at the table with Jesus and dem? Are you gonna tell Jesus you didn’t fuck with Khalil Amani because he “fucked with them people” (FBI) on earth? Your book says, “Touch not mine anointed and do my prophets no harm” (Psalms 105:15) AND “Verily I say unto you, inasmuch as ye have done it unto one of the least of these my brethren, ye have done it unto me” (Matthew 25:40).

Do you know Khalil Amani’s religiosity and spirituality and relationship with God? What if the same anointing that fell on Saul, fell on Khalil? Would you believe his report or stand afar and aloof and continue to speaking ill of that man as the Jews did to Paul after his conversion? Who amongst you has the religious balls and autonomy and single-mindedness and fuck-what-people-say—and step out of the shadows of the conscious community’s monolithic thinking on Khalil Amani and say, “Khalil is my friend?” I mean, St. Paul was a Government Informant—and you love his dirty drawhs, so what gives?


Works Cited

Applegate, Kenneth. Voltaire On Religion: Selected Writings: New York: Frederick Ungar Publishing, 1974.

Kaufman, Walter. The Portable Nietzsche. New York: Penguin Books, 1982.

Maccoby, Hyam. The Myth Maker: Paul and the Invention of Christianity. San Francisco. 1986.

Massey, Gerald. Gerald Massey's Lectures. Brooklyn: A&B Publishers 1992.

Silberman, Neil Asher. The Hidden Scrolls. New York: G.P. Putnam's Sons, 1994.

Vermes, G. The Dead Sea Scrolls. England: Penguin Books, 1990. 

Khalil Amani is "Gay hip-hop's Straight Advocate." A Miami native who writes for, DJ Kay Slay’s Straight Stuntin Magazines. He’s been featured in L.A. Times, Miami New Times, Miami Herald, Thump/Vice/, Forward, Spin Magazine,, DJ Kay Slay's Streetsweeper Sirius XM Radio Show, The Opperman Report, The Biography Channel's, "I Survived a Cult"(2010) and The Biography Channel's, "Escaping Evil: My Life in a Cult" (2013). Amani is the author of seven books, including the groundbreaking “Hip-Hop Homophobes…” ( ’07). Amani majored in English and Black Studies at San Diego Mesa College and the University of Nebraska. Follow on IG @khalil_amani, Facebook, Twitter @khalilamani. Email

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