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Out of Ignorance, Jealousy & Envy, They Hate!
By Khalil Amani
People are always gossiping about others lives. I’m guilty too! But this little ditty I’m writing is about MY LIFE!
I'm only gonna say this once! For any so-called "friends" and family who are flapping their gums about my life and what I do—when you see me on TV talking about my cult experience (or anything else for that matter!)—I'm not living in the past or rehashing old news (or whatever other superficial commentary you wanna offer up).
First and foremost! This is MY LIFE and you can't live it for me, direct it for me or try to steer me in another direction. You don’t get it, do you? You’re so consumed with trying to dig your nails into my life! I hear you! “Give it a rest already! Stop living in the past! You’re a snitch! Blah, blah, blah, blah!” Everybody has an effin’ opinion (and I’m glad you do, but get informed before running your yap-trap!)
If you haven’t heard, we’re living in the days of fanaticism, nihilism, religious extremism and pseudo-nationalistic hatred for others, etc. The cult-mentality is what brought down the Twin Towers on 9/11! The cult-mentality has permeated our society, so-much-so, that at any given hour a gunman will open fire on a crowded subway during rush hour.
So when you see me on TV recounting my cult experience from 25-years ago it is actually more relevant today than it was 25-years ago! Your problem is that you’re looking at the person—Khalil Amani—who you might’ve known as a friend, a brother, a father or an associate. But I’m here to tell you that this is waaaaaaay bigger than the man—Khalil Amani!
It’s always disconcerting when the people that you think are closest to you are talking shit behind your back—family and long-time friends. Even though they are “close” to you they are devoid of your struggle. People on the outside understand you more than the ones closest to you, but I know what Jesus said, “A prophet IS NOT without honor, except in his own nation, in his own house.”
Do you think these TV shows haphazardly produce shows that aren’t of interest to a wide spectrum of viewers? It’s all about money! It’s all about what’s current, interesting and cutting-edge! People find Khalil Amani’s life interesting (even if you don’t!) Instead of hating on Khalil Amani, go find a life that is newsworthy to mass media, I mean, since you are shit-talking about this man’s life.
Again, if you haven’t heard, Khalil Amani is a writer—a raconteur—a griot—a storyteller! Instead of bumping your gums and player-hating on Khalil Amani—if you really wanna know why he keeps talking and how being in a cult really affected him (and continues to affect him)—take your nosy ass down to Barnes & Nobles and order a copy of his book, “My Id: Ignant & Dissfunkshunal: My Life in the Yahweh Cult and the Witness Protection Program.” (iuniverse.com $27.95, 373 pages).
Would you have it if Alex Haley didn’t write “Roots” and follow up with a movie? That event happened over 500 years ago! But you’re wondering why Khalil is dealing with some shit that happened to him 25 years ago? See how silly you sound right about now? Would you have if Malcolm X (with Alex Haley) didn’t write about his life in “The Autobiography of Malcolm X?” Would you have it if Maya Angelo didn’t write “I Know Why the Caged Bird Sings”—a story about her life?—Or “The Autobiography of Miss Jane Pittman” or “Anne Frank: The Diary of a Young Girl” and the later movie, “The Diary of Anne Frank?”
What makes these authors any different than Khalil Amani?
What you call “old news” and Amani “living in the past” is just your fucked-up narrow worldview. You are neither interested in helping save the world nor anyone in it! He is! So, if his story opens the eyes of a few cult members—great!
So! If you're a out-going person like Khalil Amani--someone who has lots going on, expect that people will privately question your life. Ignore them and make things happen!
But! At the end of the day, Khalil Amani is a FUCKING WRITER! If you don’t get that--go kill yourself! If you’re hating on Khalil Amani on TV, just wait until you see Khalil Amani on reality TV! Wait unti his story pops up on the silver-screen! You’re gonna really wanna kill yourself!