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Troy Ave and his Dumb Christian Religiosity!

Troy Ave and his Dumb Christian Religiosity!

By Khalil Amani

The Latin phrase "De mortuis nihil nisi bonum," coined by Chilon of Sparta (ca. 600 BC) translates as, “Speak no ill of the dead,” or “Of the dead, speak no evil” and “Do not speak ill of the dead.” The dead can’t defend themselves and the dead have moved on to a realm that we cannot fathom in all of its mystery, abyss and splendor.

If you haven’t heard, rapper Troy Ave has been on a rant over a rap beef with Joey Badass. In his lyrics he goes at one of Joey’s homies named Capital Steez who committed suicide by jumping off a roof. Like many dumb-ass Christians, Troy Ave believes that suicide is equivalent to going to hell. Troy Ave raps, “Steez’s burning in Hell. My burner’s on my belt. I’m really killing sh*t, you n*ggas killing yourself. F*cking weirdos, off the roof. Steer clear yo!”

Just because you rock a crucifix (cross) and a Jesus Piece doesn't make you religiously smart! (Where's ya Ankh?) Actually, the wearing of a cross symbolizes that you are "crossed up," "criss-crossed" and "double crossed." You're a trick of white religious ideology! Even your mythological devil reps the cross! When God asked Satan where he's been, Satan retorted, "From going to and fro in the earth, and from walking up and down in it" (Job 1:7). Visualize that foo! 

The eurocentric (white) concept of hell is a religious invention concocted to control people—religious people. Somehow, Troy Ave thinks that a person killing himself is without God’s forgiveness, yet he boasts about having the “burner” (gun) on his hip and he’s “really killing shit.” I guess killing others is a lesser sin than killing one’s self to hear Troy Ave tell it. So let me give you some enlightened religious clarity on the subject of suicide—some informed, critical thinking on the subject. (And you thought I was just this weirdo who big-ups gay rappers. I’m a goddamned quasi-pseudo-religious-intellectual! Now watch me work!)

So what do I have to do? Show you my curriculum vitae? How about a glance at my resume’? Or maybe you’d like a goddamned urine sample? Writing about religion and religious matters is where I made my bones, having written and published four (4) books in the religion genre. (Ghetto Religiosity 2000, II, III, Hip-Hop Homophobes 2000, 2001, 2007) But if that ain’t enough to show you that I’m well-qualified to deal with this subject and just not spouting my personal opinion—how about the fact that I minored in religion at the University of Nebraska? And even more, I’ve read every religious scholar/thinker worth his salt—from Barth—Bultmann—Tillich—Knitter—Kant—Troeltsch—Toynbee—Rahner—Panikker—to Origen, Augustine, Josephus, Luther and Philo, etcetera. I’ve studied “Liberation Theology” as taught by James Cone and Gustavo Gutierrez and “Feminist Theology” as understood by Rosemary Radford Reuther.

I’ve been a Christian, a 5%er and a Hebrew Israelite. I’ve studied it all! So my “opinion” ain’t some random niggerology pulled from between these old butt-cheeks! I really dooz dis!


Does suicide equal hell? NO! What does the Bible say about suicide? NOTHING! Is the word suicide even in the Bible? NO! Simply put, suicide was not an issue for the ancient Jews. Of the 613 Laws, Statutes, Judgments and Commandments, suicide never rears its ugly head. Even if you try doing some religious gymnastics and quote the “10 Commandment's” law of “Thou shall not kill” it falls flat. Why? Because of the scholarly religious device known as “EXEGESIS” says so! Exegesis is the “scholarly critical explanation or interpretation of a text”—looking at what the text meant to the original hearers and readers of “said” text (not you 2016 Negroes!); in this case the Bible. “Thou shall not kill”—for the ancient Jews meant thou shall not kill another Israelite for no reason. It had nothing to do with killing one’s self! And killing is qualified in the Old Testament. Killing has its place as referenced by the many times Yahweh (God) tells Israel to kill other nations and to kill gluttons, adulterers, fornicators, rapists, and rebellious children—your Bible says to KILL all these motherfuckers, so don’t get “thou shall not kill” twisted! Exodus 21:24 says, “If any mischief follow thou shall give eye for eye …life for life.”

Moving on….

An argument can be made that Jesus himself committed suicide! His actions leading up to getting up on that “Ol' Rugged Cross” were suicidal—and he knew it, given the times, the climate and claiming to be the "King" of Israel!" Any man claiming to be "King of the Jews" was immediately and summarily executed! Only a lunatic or a man with a death-wish would utter such words against Rome. He set his suicide in motion the minute he openly proclaimed, “I am the King of the Jews!” Furthermore, Jesus said, "No man taketh it [my life] from me, but I lay it [my life] down of myself..." (John 10:18) Is not this the rantings of a suicidal man?

And even more, Jesus even thought suicide  or killing was an excellent idea for some.

Like Yahweh (God), Yahshua (Jesus) believed in killing a mofo for crossing certain boundaries as well. He said, “But whoso shall offend one of these little ones which believe in me, it were better for him that a millstone were hanged about his neck, and that he were drowned in the depth of the sea” (Matthew 18:6). Jesus further stated, “But those mine enemies, which would not that I should reign [rule] over them, bring them hither [here], and slay [murder] them before me” (Luke 19:27). Oh, you didn’t know Jesus got down like that? Well now you know! This is right in your Bible!

Troy Ave's understanding of religion & suicide is about as deep as reading Dr. Seuss! Like, really nigga! Who have you read to even have an opinion on suicide? You're a victim of listening to Rev. Chickenfoot's Sunday soliloquy in your youth. Ya just oughta shut your yap-trap! Life is sacred, but so is the spirit! Physical life only last 60-100 years, but the spirit lives until Time Immemorial.


Jesus never spoke on killing one’s self (suicide). Quite the contrary! He believed that some people gotta get murked for effin’ with his children. That’s from his own lips! If suicide were a major issue of the day (in Jesus’ time) he prolly would’ve addressed it. One thing for sure; he told us the one sin that would never be forgiven. “Wherefore I say unto you, all manner of sin and blasphemy shall be forgiven unto men, but the blasphemy against the Holy Ghost shall not be forgiven unto men… neither in this world, neither in the world to come” (Matthew 12:31-32).

So if you consider suicide a “sin” you have to consider what Jesus said—ALL MANNER OF SIN SHALL BE FORGIVEN! How are you gonna condemn Robin Williams or anyone who commits suicide to the hell-fires? Whatever happened to “judge not, lest ye be judged?” Condemning the suicidal victim to eternal damnation has no scriptural proof or authority and runs contrary to the man you say you worship!

Moving right along…

The idea that suicide equated to eternal damnation was a creation of the early Roman Church—and for good reasons! Cosigning suicide means the Church loses money. The early Church’s backbone rested on the laity—the common folk. They wanted them ignorant and alive, so like many other false teachings, they invented the Boogie Man (hell) and told those religiously ignorant people that suicide was a big no-no. The Roman Church played hella games with the people—like not wanting them to learn to read so they could see what the Bible really says—like making them pay something called “Indulgences” so that their time in Purgatory would be lessened. The Roman Church was one big mind-fuck until an unassuming monk named Martin Luther came along and took the whole organized Christian Catholic faith to task over its teachings. Couple that with the invention of the printing press by Johannes Gutenberg in 1439—it was a rap! The Bible began to be printed and circulated and now the people could read for themselves.

But back the fluck up! The early Church actually cosigned suicide. Have you ever heard of Justin Martyr? He ushered in “Martyrdom.” Early Christians thought it to be a badge of courage to be killed for Christ. In many case they were purposefully putting themselves in harm’s way, hoping to be killed. On some suicide-for-Jesus-type-shit, similar to how some Muslims believe in killing themselves for Allah or those little Japanese fellas engaging in Kamikaze warfare; that is, suicide attacks by flying their airplanes into battleships. Indeed, early Christianity engaged in some weirdo suicidal type ish! They were even racking their bodies with whips! They called it “Flagellation.”

This is the background and history which has led up to your understanding of God’s Word. Your preacher isn’t gonna take you down Memory Lane and bring you up to speed on how you got to believing this bullcrap of suicide equating to hell. I have to do it! You’ve got a Disneyland understanding of God, Jesus and your faith and you dare not challenge age-old antiquated teachings, so here you are in 2016 reciting, regurgitating, aping, parroting and upchucking (vomiting) some shit that you have no idea how you came to believe in the first place! Who taught you suicide equals hell? Quote me some chapters and verses! You can’t! All you can do is say, “It say somewhere in da bable…” Shut up! No it doesn’t! All you can say is, “Well dats yo ‘pinion! I have mine!” Shut up! You don’t have a fuckin’ opinion about suicide! You have a programmed religious response given to you by your preacher who is paid to tow the party-line. That nigga dare not teach anything outside of orthodoxy!

The Bible doesn’t deal with depression or suicide because they had not developed beyond the warrior ideology of their god Yahweh. At best, a preacher must string a shitload of scriptures together to make his case against suicide. Sure, there are scriptures that teach us to honor our temples (bodies), but is that a commandment against suicide? Hell no!

I know about depression and suicide. I've been seriously depressed at least once in my life where suicide looked quite enticing. Thus, we oughta rid ourselves of that tired and so very UNTRUE cliché, "God won't give us more than we can bear." It is a damnable lie! The only people who believe such garbage are those whose hearts have never been tested to that extreme.

No one can truly understand the depth of someone else's suffering, or the reasons that could drive a soul to such desperation. Only God knows what is in a person's heart (Psalm 139:1-2). Only He knows the extent of pain which might bring a person to the point of suicide. We don’t know what Capital Steez or any suicidal person says to God before taking that last breath. We should rid ourselves of this old, antiquated, archaic, and outdated theology that suicide equals hell. It just isn’t true! It has never been true! And that’s the truth! If suicide equals hell, where's the effing (biblical) proof? Dare I say there is none!

Troy Ave and many of you followers of the white man’s Christian theology are merely parroting, vomitting, upchucking, regurgitating, and aping your opinion on suicide, based on your kindergarten-nursery-school understanding of things of a Divine nature. Troy Ave likes to say "Facts!" Well here's a fact! Everything you think you know about God & suicide was planted in your cerebellum when you were a Payless-shopping-hard-bottom-wearing-snotty-nosed kid.Troy Ave says he’s “religious.” Indeed, he is! Now is the time to become a spiritual being and stop thinking like white people about the afterlife. This old man can learn ya sumthin' if you can shed the white supremacist religious ideology of a life laden & bombarded by eurocentric imagery.  R.I.P. Capital Steez!

Khalil Amani is a blogger for AllHipHopcom. He also writes for DJ Kay Slay’s Originators Magazine & Straight Stuntin Magazine. He is the author of six books, including the ground-breaking book, “Hip-Hop Homophobes…” 07). Amani is gay hip-hop’s self-proclaimed straight advocate. Visit The Coonerific One at Follow on Facebook/Twitter @khalilamani. Instagram @khalil_amani, Youtube @ yahweh 12 Amani's books are orderable at or any Barnes & Nobles, Borders.

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